MIDNIGHT!

There's just no time anymore. No time for:
*blogging
*reading
*sleeping
*cleaning
*playing
and about a billion other things I want to do.
Ah, the joys of being a mom who works two jobs.

Yeah, I've got a little stress, but who doesn't? Being a mom isn't the easiest job in the world, but its also not the hardest. I LOVE being a mom. Love every single second of it. If I could pick one thing to do for the rest of my life it would be to be a mom. But being a mom comes with a lot of other responsibilities. Kids are expensive, for one. So as much as I hate it, I gotta work. Don't get me wrong, I love my jobs (one more than the other) but its hard to be away from my little buddy and its not very easy trying to take care of him at one of my jobs.
Lately, all of you Facebook -ers have probably noticed me being a little down. So let me open a little window as to why. And once again, I'm not looking for sympathy or anything. Just venting.
I'm a perfectionist. And although probably don't need to say anymore, let me elaborate. I like lists. I like schedules. I love plans and planning and I love it even more when things go to plan (who doesn't?). I like 8 hours of sleep and 3 square meals a day.
Now take all the things I love...and flush them down the toilet. I went from having a pretty good routine and being able to plan everyday in advance and the comfort and freedom of knowing how to do my job to two completely new jobs where I know very little. Once again I'm at the bottom of the totempole (how do you spell that?) at both of my new jobs and then lets throw a brand new baby into the mix. I have 2 days off. The one where Jake and I run all our errands and catch up on life and Sunday, where I catch up on sleep.
The moral of this story? Please don't worry if I seem a little "off". This new life is just taking some getting used to and eventually I'll be OK. But for now just know that I need to vent every once and awhile. (And as much as I wish it were all Just hormones and the doctor could just give me a pill and make it all better, its much, much more than that.) But I'm working on it and I know that I will eventually be OK with it all. But for now its OK to lose it a little every now and then.