Under Pressure

Pressure pushing down on me Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure -that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
-that's o.k.
It's the terror of knowing
What the world is about Watching some good friends Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow -gets me higher
Pressure on people -people on streets
O.k. Chippin' around -kick my brains around the
These are the days it never rains but it pours
People on streets
People on streets
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow -gets me higher high high
Pressure on people -people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn
Why -why -why ?
Love love love love love Insanity laughs under pressure we're crack
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love give love give love
'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for The people on the edge of the night
And loves dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

No one ever knows what anyone is thinking, going through, dealing with, feeling or what pressure they are under. There are too many variables. As humans we keep so much inside. Hiding it from the people we see and talk to, hiding it from our closest friends, and even hiding it from ourselves. There is always an inner part of us that we wish we could change, get rid of, cure.
We all have to learn how to live with ourselves. We need to remember we all have something we are dealing with, some better than others. We all put on our happy faces in the darkest days. And it is easier for some to do than for others.

Vent...vent...vent....

I WAS going to put a cute little blog about my baby on my famlily blog but for some stupid reason it isn't working. It never does. I tried to put pictures on when we first got internet and something was wrong with the computer I was using so it wouldn't upload the pictures. So I got over it and went to use my inlaw's computer. I had to put the pictures on the computer first and when I went to upload them from my camera to the computer I realized the camera was dead and I forgot the charger. So I couldn't do anything. Next, I decided to use our laptop. I spent a whole day trying to figure out how to get the pictures where I wanted them on the computer because the stupid camera comes with it's own system that I didn't want to use. Figured that out and then decided to do a blog only to realize all the pictures I had were from Lake Powell and I wasn't in the mood to do a big long picture blog about Lake Powell...yet. So I took the time to email myself the pictures on my phone and then download them all onto my computer. (There is supposed to be a way I can just plug my phone into the computer with a USB but of course when I tried it, it didn't work...as usual.) So then I begin my blog and start by putting pictures first because as any of you who have "blogger" know, the pictures will go at the top, even if you already have text there. Anyway, I wait and wait and then....internet explore decides to close. Right when the pictures finish uploading but it isn't on long enough to save my blog as a draft. I open internet explorer and get to the site only to find it did not save my pictures that I so patiently waited for. And that was it. I took a deep breath, decided not to throw the computer across the room (which is another story for another blog) and went to my own blog to write this. A venting blog on how I really can't deal lately.

...and then I rambled for a bit before deleting a paragraph and starting over and then....Kyler unplugged the laptop. Awesome. So I stopped to spend time with my child that I was obviously not giving enough attention to. So guess I will just publish this.

I Scream, You Scream, We All Scream for...ICE CREAM!

I love ice cream...surprise! Haha! But I don't love ALL ice cream. So, following the 'ask-answer' blog I did yesterday, let's see who knows what I like and don't like when it comes to ice cream. Don't forget to comment! Even guesses could be right!

1. I have already blogged about my favorite ice cream, cookie dough by blue bunny. Besides that flavor I have 2 other favorites. Mint chip is one and what is the other?

2. What is my favorite topping besides cookie dough?

3. What flavor ice cream (plain flavor) do I Not like?

4. What topping/mix-in do I hate?

5. How much ice cream do I eat in one week, on average?

One week to comment your answers...or more if no one comments.

ILOVEICECREAMILOVEICECREAMILOVEICECREAMILOVEICECREAMILOVEICECREAMILOVEICECREAM!

Back to the Blog

I realized I haven't blogged in awhile. I guess after that 30 day challenge I didn't feel like I had much to talk about. My first idea was to do another 30 days but then I thought, "wow, I talk about myself a lot." So I decided to switch it up. No, I'm not going to talk about other people. I'm going to have other people talk about me! Hahaha I sound so conceded. But hey, its my blog, or Empire, really. I know not many people read my blog but I do know of a few people that do. So I'll ask questions I think very few people know the answer to and see who really knows the answer. So, if you do know the answer, leave a comment. After 1 week I will tell you if you're right or not. What a fun game!

1. I very rarely get sick. When was I the most sick (that I remember)? Here's a clue: something big was going on in my life at the same time.

2. Not that I'm proud of it but I have sworn a time or two in my life. How old was I when I said my first swear word. *bonus if you know Which word it was.

3. I am "addicted" to 2 sugary things. What are they?

4. What movie did I hold my breath while watching the first time until the person watching with me said, "breathe!"?

5. What genre of movies do I refuse to watch?

6. How many elementary schools did I attend?

7. What is the nickname I had that is a type of animal?

8. When I was little what did I call "ice cream"? (There is no right way to spell it.)

9. I have 4 favorite numbers. Name at least one of them.

10. What country do I want to visit? Careful, this could be a trick question.

Don't forget to comment! Even if you only know one of the answers or just have a guess.

Home {not so} Sweet Home

If you have read my blog before you will know that we recently fixed up our house in St. George. Well, the new renters (who moved in in April, decided they couldn't afford to live there and wanted to sell their contract. We put anv ad on ksl classifieds on a Tuesday and by Friday afternoon we had the deposit of our new tenants. This gave the current renters one week to move out. They agreed to it so that they wouldn't have another months rent to pay. We had heard from the new tenants that not everything was in perfect condition. So we decided to drive down to make sure and meet the new tenants. The privious ones only lived there for 3 months, how bad could it be? So we get there and the old tenant is showing us around the house and one of the bedrooms has a broken door jam. As in, their kid locked it from the inside so instead of calling a lock smith or trying to figure out how to unlock or unhinge the door, they just broke it in. It was cracked and in pieces for about a foot and a half along the side. They had "tried" to piece it back together with the few bigger pieces by screwing them in. (Because that doesn't look tacky at all!) And then they wanted to fill the rest of the holes with putty. Are ya kiddin me?! I guess if the house we a run down piece of crap it would be ok but this is a nice house that we just fixed up to top condition. So Jake goes to Lowe's hoping he can just replace the one one piece. Nope. They broke it so bad we have to replace the entire door jam. So Jake finds out how much it will cost and how much to instal it and everything and we head back to the house. That's when we notice the scratch in the living room wall that runs the entire length of the room. A big black line and a couple big gashes. What have these people been doing??! And the girls all "oh, I can just paint over that." Uh, no! Jake tells he the holes have to be filled first and then sanded and then painted. Ridiculous! Next she tells us that the front door knob was all jamed in and they had to "fix" that so the door would stay closed. There was not even 24 hours between the time we left and they moved in. Meaning either the old tenants or someone else tried to break in in that short window of time or they did something to that door too. We agree not to charge them for that and Jake fixes it the right way in less than 5 min.
Ok, now a little background info. They lived there 3 months and we never got a full months rent. They did pay the $500 deposit. So they owed us $470. And although it says in our contract you can't use your deposit for last month or back rent we decide to let them do it. We never once charged them a late fee. And we let them pay later in the month when they got their check. We were nothing but nice. So they now only have $30 of their deposit. We decide that needs to go towards all the minor repairs we have to do and that makes us even. And then there is the $200 for the door jam, which they broke. I understand some people aren't good with math but it seems pretty clear to me. She just kept saying "that comes out of our deposit right?" Honey, you ain't go no deposit! After awhile she gets it and we decide to have her sign a contract saying they'll pay the $200 by the end of the month. She calls her husband to okay it with him and I can hear him yelling on the other end. He obviously doesn't get it either. You can't just not pay rent and then expect everything you owe to disappear because you're moving out. Besides that They broke the door! Holy cow some people amaze me at how ridiculous they are. Anyway, she signs the contract and says she is going to leave...only she doesn't. She hangs out until the new tenants get there. And in listening to them talk I find out one of her kids peeed all over the wall so she had to clean that up. Not to mention he did it multiple times. And we found out that when the new tenants went to look at the house the other tenants just locked all 3 of their kids in a room and watched tv. Real responsible. No wonder he peed on the wall. The kid was left unattended.
So in the end she signed the contract and we're waiting for our $200 and the other renters paid us everything the owe on time. Let's just hope they keep that up. We are so glad to be rid of the other renters. If they could do that much damage in 3 months I don't want to know what it would have looked like over a year!

An Answer to My Prayers

IT HAS BEEN FOUND!!!
Thanks to all those who wished and prayed (and emailed Blue Bunny) for my ice cream to come back. I guess it never stopped being a flavor, Walmart just decided to stop carrying it. HOWEVER...Macey's has it! (for now) I don't know why I didn't think to look there, it's only blocks from my house. We just always do our shopping at Walmart. Jake went there the other day to get something and realized they had it! I was sooooo happy! He told me he didn't get it because I still had a lot of ice cream. Tonight we went there to get a couple things and I saw it. At first I thought, oh I don't need it. I should finish the other ones first. But then as I started to walk away I just couldn't do it. Plus it was on sale and it probably wouldn't be when I did come back for it. And it can sit in the freezer for a bit so I can finish the other one. Oh who am I kidding?!! I'm going to eat some as soon as I finish this. Mmmm heaven. I can almost taste it already. Well, that' enough blogging...I've got stuff to do (and ice cream to eat!!!!)

Celine says it all...

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you
Hush, love I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come

Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, love I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
A new day has...come


It's pretty obvious what this song is about but I heard it the other day and realized it was a great way to describe how I felt when jake and I first met.