Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Under Pressure

Pressure pushing down on me Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure -that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
-that's o.k.
It's the terror of knowing
What the world is about Watching some good friends Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow -gets me higher
Pressure on people -people on streets
O.k. Chippin' around -kick my brains around the
These are the days it never rains but it pours
People on streets
People on streets
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow -gets me higher high high
Pressure on people -people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn
Why -why -why ?
Love love love love love Insanity laughs under pressure we're crack
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love give love give love
'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for The people on the edge of the night
And loves dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

No one ever knows what anyone is thinking, going through, dealing with, feeling or what pressure they are under. There are too many variables. As humans we keep so much inside. Hiding it from the people we see and talk to, hiding it from our closest friends, and even hiding it from ourselves. There is always an inner part of us that we wish we could change, get rid of, cure.
We all have to learn how to live with ourselves. We need to remember we all have something we are dealing with, some better than others. We all put on our happy faces in the darkest days. And it is easier for some to do than for others.

Vent...vent...vent....

I WAS going to put a cute little blog about my baby on my famlily blog but for some stupid reason it isn't working. It never does. I tried to put pictures on when we first got internet and something was wrong with the computer I was using so it wouldn't upload the pictures. So I got over it and went to use my inlaw's computer. I had to put the pictures on the computer first and when I went to upload them from my camera to the computer I realized the camera was dead and I forgot the charger. So I couldn't do anything. Next, I decided to use our laptop. I spent a whole day trying to figure out how to get the pictures where I wanted them on the computer because the stupid camera comes with it's own system that I didn't want to use. Figured that out and then decided to do a blog only to realize all the pictures I had were from Lake Powell and I wasn't in the mood to do a big long picture blog about Lake Powell...yet. So I took the time to email myself the pictures on my phone and then download them all onto my computer. (There is supposed to be a way I can just plug my phone into the computer with a USB but of course when I tried it, it didn't work...as usual.) So then I begin my blog and start by putting pictures first because as any of you who have "blogger" know, the pictures will go at the top, even if you already have text there. Anyway, I wait and wait and then....internet explore decides to close. Right when the pictures finish uploading but it isn't on long enough to save my blog as a draft. I open internet explorer and get to the site only to find it did not save my pictures that I so patiently waited for. And that was it. I took a deep breath, decided not to throw the computer across the room (which is another story for another blog) and went to my own blog to write this. A venting blog on how I really can't deal lately.

...and then I rambled for a bit before deleting a paragraph and starting over and then....Kyler unplugged the laptop. Awesome. So I stopped to spend time with my child that I was obviously not giving enough attention to. So guess I will just publish this.